Saying Goodbye

I hope to be halfway back on Friday, but won’t leave a moment to chance. Perhaps it’s the fear of the unknown within me, after all, I’ve never had surgery before and as a creative I have moments of passionate drama steeped so deeply within me. (whether they are warranted of not) Please forgive me that I have to express them somehow. There are, after all, only two outcomes to this, only one with second chances. You all know what you mean to me and how you have moved me, how you gave a Lil Cao a moments respite in an overwhelmingly big world. If I could have done it over from the beginning, I wouldn’t haven’t changed a single solitary moment. You are all mad crazy brilliant and I adore you all! How lucky I am to have known not one someone, but so many someones who are so hard to say goodbye to. Hopefully it’s an until we meet again, but if Fate has other plans for me, know you are loved!

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) ~ e.e.cummings