Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free. ~Jim Morrison
It seems like I’ve been pushing myself so hard for four years. Four years on June 24th I’ve been here blogging nearly every single day. Three and a half years of spilling out my real life story. My life, it mirrors so many of my readers lives. After all, what are we but women (and a few men as well) living our life, insecure in spots, OK in others, striving for love, security, life, happiness, a chance to fall in love with ourselves and to awake one day and say, “you are OK, but I am OK too?” I found a love, I then lost said love. I’ve had some date disaster’s, some wardrobe malfunctions, a love-hate relationship with spanx, an accidental donation of my beloved B.O.B. to Good Will, a peek into the world of my mothers mind, the loss of a father and the realization that when I let it all go and gave up, I found the love I had always sought after, I decided to love myself and through my growth I found a mature adult relationship with a man. A new joy, a new direction, my heart more out of my Second world than in. I love the friends I have made in Second Life, I will never give them up because each of you has taught me something, given me something, even if it was just a much needed piece of your mind. I needed it, and at times may not have wanted it, but I took it, and I took it to heart.
There is a change within, the tides are turning, the winds reversing. It started quite a few months ago by not writing words on my blog anymore, then I quit blogging on weekends. This week, already four days in and this is just my second post. I’m OK, it feels right. absence fits about my shoulders like a warm feathery soft cloak. Life is Good. Second Life has so many talented bloggers I enjoy reading the work of others just as much as I do creating my own space. Though I refuse to go away from Second Life on any permanent nature at this point, and I will continue to blog here, it’s time to free up some space for the bucket list I have in my real life. I won’t quit, I am just doing a little reassigning of my time constraints. To those in my posse, know I love you all, each and every one of you and that will never change. Have a wonderful weekend and I’ll see you around inworld. If you happen to see a lonely Little Moo inworld, I hope you will give her a “hallo.”
Outfit:
Hair: Vanity Hair, Waimea @ The Aloha Fair SLURL
Bikini: erratic, Beth @ ~Uber~ SLURL
Necklace: Kungler’s, Miloca SLURL
Pose: {Nantra}, Beach Illustrated 2015 **NEW** SLURL
Receipt for the 2015 Hair Fair Benefitting Wigs for Kids showing the winners bid and my matching bid:
an chailín álainn 
You take care of you, Cao! Whether you’re blogging daily, a few times a week, or just whenever the mood strikes, we’ll always be here to support you. ♥
You are a beautiful and kind friend Ever, thank you ❤
I’ll be here for you forever and yes is a little for me as well , even if you are absent some you are not very far because you have taken up permanent residence in my heart. Now park that beautiful virtual bod and take my real moo to the beach this weekend ……Waves at Taylor, such a lucky guy he is and I hope he knows it. Love you dollface
I love you so much Spirit, I am happy that in all those virtual peeps in SL you found a spot in your heart for a ramblin’ moo. ❤
Ditto, ditto, and ditto. Go out and embrace the real Cao and her real man in her real life. We will all be here when you choose to share a slice of yourself with us. You are an awesome moo-man and I am lucky to call you friend.
I won’t lie and say that you won’t be missed, but the joy is in knowing you are somewhere enjoying yourself and hopefully have a very large smile permanently affixed on your lovely face.:)
Huggs.
*holds arms wide* Hard to hug the air, maybe I need to go out and find a tree? I am the lucky one EJ bc you are a muched love member of my posse. ❤
I look forward to finding your blog and having a tiny glimpse into your life. I would miss it a lot of you did not let us in on the joys and heartaches of your real world. Know that we keep your words in a tiny locket on our soul to read some days and realize we are not alone.
Your words mean the world to me Kaciee, you are one of my “old school” readers and I am always surprised and thankful I didn’t bore you enough you would choose to leave. I’ve learned a lot from you and I am thankful we are friends. Huge hug and a kiss on the nose. ❤