Mixed Emotions

It’s the Sunday before the New Year, so I won’t torture you endlessly today. Hear that Draakje Dailey, minimal word and peace! With the New Year fast approaching I want to ask you to think about something the next few days. I am sure through this year you were hit with both sadness and happiness, joy and pain. I am also sure at times the two groups were not mutually exclusive. One of the happiest moments in my year was right before Christmas, Taylor took me to dinner, gave me a gorgeous necklace and whispered, “I love you.” You would think it the happiest moment of my life, but it was poignantly laced with the pain of my father never knowing his youngest daughter actually found a man, a good man, who could love her just as she is.

The experience is typical of this world we live in, because in so many areas of our lives we are broken. But luckily though, we live in a world with good and bad moments, so we can grab the happy breaths of space and hopefully intertwine it amongst the bad in the hopes of minimalizing the pain. It’s my grown up dream anyway. And this year, I am going to have a grown up New Years Eve.

Take from? Yes, we are all awkward at times and sometimes don’t show our best light to the world. For New Years, let’s dwell on the future, hug close the positive and let go and forgive ourselves the moments we were less than stellar in actions or movement. The wonderful thing about life is we do get multiple reset buttons, so we can create a way to live that is a positive impact on those about us, by simply changing direction. January first is almost here, and will be whether we are ready or not, so why not buckle-in and be ready to make this the best one yet?

Outfit:
Hair: Lelutka, Yves
Hat: Lode, Lill **NEW**
Dress: Mohna Lisa Couture, Angelina
Earrings: .Shi, Mermaid
Necklace/Ring/Bracelet: Vexiin, Verse
Shoos: Miamai, NaturA **L’Accessiores**

Lovable

Outfit/Hat: Leezu!, Saphire **NEW** . MakeUp: HMAEM, Otero . Hairs: Tram, A816 .

Are you? To me, it’s tough to tell at times, most people say I am, so I assume it to be true, but oft I am so cranky I wonder how can it possibly be? At the heart of our personality, our very essence of soul, is the need to feel that we have a sense of being lovable, even when displaying our worst behavior. Why should we have to ever qualify for acceptance? But in reality we kinda do. In my mind I know even the most obtuse of creatures is loved by at least someone, I suppose in a way, someone even loved Hitler and he was, by all accounts, a monster. So why should we ever feel we are unlovable?

This gown is so 3D it looks just as gorgeous when you leave a room

You aren’t, you know. I have love, or at the least acceptance, for all of you, my stalwart passer’s-by. I couldn’t imagine spending a day without you, even if it is just a blip of showing up, getting counted. But perhaps that is my fatal flaw, I expect attention and adoration. Well I don’t “expect” it, but I sure like it. Does that make me vain, or does it make me, like most of us, in need of validation that we are lovable? Self-esteem is made up primarily of two things: feeling lovable and feeling capable. I certainly feel capable enough, I work, I live, I love, I am a good citizen to this Earth. The davil of the detail is in the feeling lovable, don’t you think?

I like Leezu!s new offering so much I even included the Taxi for you: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/LeeZu/145/128/22

The take from? I’m not sure, I was thinking about how we are always loved and accepted by those we call family, (even the friend type family), and sometimes we are even loved and accepted by strangers. I like those kinds of lovabler’s (or would it be love-enabler’s) the most, they are such self-less acts of kindness. But where I think I was going on this blog, was to the grocery store, because in my core I believe the most important step to being loved is to love others. So I am going to wander off to see how many selfless acts of kindness I can give to others this holiday season. That is what the season is about, isn’t it? I think I read that somewhere in my journey through life. I hope you receive many acts of kind hearted love today and have a peaceful weekend!

Learning to Be Quiet

I’ve mentioned a few times how much I appreciate you all in this time, those who give comments, those who give none too. I am a very quiet person by nature, so it would stand to reason I probably won’t talk about this too much. A take it back, there is one someone I have talked quite a bit about it to. The someone who has been my friend and confidante for fourteen years now. I introduced her quite a bit in a previous blog, my little Jack Russell Terrior-ist KT, her spelling, not mine. My name for her is Katy Foo Fighter, but she doesn’t spell very well, having only made it through kindergarten before they kicked her out for biting the teacher. For an introduction to my best friend for life, it was in this blog: http://anchailinalainn.com/2013/07/23/kt-the-davil-dog-and-doctor-ben-dover/ I hope you will visit there because there is a point to blogging about her now.

And lest you think me a few tacos short of a combination platter, I am not the only person who finds comfort in a four-legged friend. Do you remember right after the Sandy Hook tragedy, when we were all up in arms, about arms, ranting and raving about gun control? While we did nothing but scream about the injustice of it all, a real group of heros traveled to that grief stricken city and really rolled up the proverbial sleeves and got to work. This group of good will samaritans? Well they were nothing more than specially trained golden retrievers. They can’t speak, all they could do was what they were trained to do, be an affectionate presence. And you know what? The traumatized children of violence opened up to them, telling them of their fears, angst and painful emotions. Words they were unable to say to a single adult.

The take from? Yep, I still have them. The biggest part of our animals natural born empathy, is their ability to just be quiet. People in grief don’t always needs words, sometimes we just need someone to set a spell, silently holding our hand, to just listen when we speak and to hug us when our grief turns to tears. You would be amazed the amount of comfort one can receive just feeling the presence of another who is willing to just be still. Well, thats my wooden nickle on it anyway.

Outfit:
Dress: Miamai, Shae **New from the Golden Thread Line**
Hat: Miamai, Titiana **New from the Golden Thread Line**

Bring it On

Hair: Tram, B426 . Eye Patch: H.M.A.E.M., Rightside patch . Headpiece: *SoliDea FoliEs*, Silver Flowers .

Just hanging in and hanging on, things are going to get better. I can feel it. I hope you are all enjoying the wonders of this holiday season and I wish you a prosperous New Year. New Holiday Haute-A-Porter designs are available at *SoliDea FoliEs* in store now! Taxi: *SoliDea FoliEs*:

Outfit: *SoliDea FoliEs*, Garbo . Boots: Bax, Regency **NEW** .

T’was the Night Before Christmas

Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St Nicholas soon would be there.

The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads.
And mamma in her ‘kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled our brains for a long winter’s nap.

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.

The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
Gave the lustre of mid-day to objects below.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a miniature sleigh, and eight tinny reindeer.

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name!

“Now Dasher! now, Dancer! now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid! on, on Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away! Dash away all!”

As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky.
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of Toys, and St Nicholas too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of Toys he had flung on his back,
And he looked like a peddler, just opening his pack.

His eyes-how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow.

The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook when he laughed, like a bowlful of jelly!

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself!
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled all the stockings, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose!

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, ‘ere he drove out of sight,

“Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night! ~ Clement Clark Moore

Acquainted With the Night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain—and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
One luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night. ~Robert Frost

Outfit:
Hair: MaDesigns, Aria Club
Lips: Miamai, Chod
Face Tattoo: Kooqla [K], Winterbloom
Pants/Shoos: Miamai, Ardore **NEW from Golden Thread**
Shoulder/Wings/Hat: Miamai, Collapse **NEW from Golden Thread**
Leather Harness: Tee*fy

35 Elephants

Come on, we can do it. It’s just 35 Elephants. We are almost half way there. Won’t you help sponsor one today?

Comments from Eliza Wierwight: “…. my Immersive “35 Elephants” also featuring the photography of the indomitable Lek Chailert, founder of the Save Elephant Foundation. Also thanks to Linden Endowment of the Arts for providing SIM space for me to pull this together over the last few days. Opens officially 21st December at 11.30am Pacific Standard Time, benefit Concert performed live on cam & screened at the event by the wonderful Joaquin Gustav, with 100% proceeds of course to Save Elephant Foundation.

she continues, “I’m not getting all vigilante about this, rather emphasize the positive. There’s a place in our cognition to recognize wrongs in any stance, I guess it’s how we choose to address the revelation after that fact. Promoting awareness and cold hard cash directed to those in the front lines seems a reasonable reaction”

Please stop and visit, I did yesterday. It is a moving, heart wrenching exhibit. Taxi: 35 Elephants – Eliza Wierwight – Lek Chailert, LEA4 (137, 184, 30)

Keeping it All the Year

If you don’t read the blog, at least (please) watch the below video. I bet you can’t figure out who the grinch is 😉

What an emotionally roller coasting year I have had, in the real world and in my second world. As I leave this year behind, I am filled with so many thoughts, some happiness, lots of sadness but of you all? Much happiness really. I adore and appreciate each and every one of you, you are amazing, supportive, kind, and oh so wonderful! You guys are the joy that abounds, when the presents are done, the food is eaten, the fire is warm and a sleepy fulfilling peacefulness miraculously invades the hardest of hearts. On here, I write just “stuff,” I was going to say crap, but I should be nice, even to myself, in the spirit of the holiday. You all bring me such a huge smile daily because you support me, some hopefully even “get” me. I am thankful even for the anonymous readers who peek in every once in a while and then wander off to their own devices. There are no words to express the honor I feel that for some reason, that day, you peeked! Life is good. I hope yours is as well. But always, let’s remember to include those less fortunate than ourselves. Even if all we can afford to spare is an extra big smile and a kind word.

For you all, this is my “grown up Christmas Wish.” This Christmas let your heart shine a little brighter, be a little more open to possibility. Christmas is not a time nor a season but a state of mind. Cherish peace and goodwill, look to others with a little more forgiveness, and feel the joy of the season with the heart of a child. Be glad, be hopeful and feel the good of the world spiritually. Because there is nothing quite so poignantly sad than to wake up Christmas day and not be a child, soften your view and embrace the season as a child. I hope you wake up in wonder and joy for all that surrounds you. That is the little wish I have for each and every one of you.

Take from? I may not come back until the New Year, definately will blog very little until then. After a brief hiatus from “date night” with all that has transpired in my life this past weeks, I’ve got one tonight. Well actually an entire date weekend. Dr. Ben Dover (naw, I think I will start calling him just Taylor, he earned it) is dragging me off to Savannah and promises there will be no need for spanx anywhere on this weekend. Wheeeee! The past couple months, I’ve been so up and down, it’s a wonder he didn’t borrow a cue from me and shiv me with one of my beloved plastic sporks, but hung around, he did. Well, looky there.. I believe my heart might have just opened up the tiniest bit more to possibility. Joy, love and peace to all of you during this holiday season. ❤

Outfit:
Hat: ::PM:: (Purple Moon <3) Merry (part of the Merry gown set) GORGEOUS!
Hair: D!va, Ange
Jewelry: Donna Flora (God I still miss her), Vivian necklace, Samara Watch, Alma Bracelet, Brenda earrings
Dress: p.c. (Paper Couture), Victoria
Glove/Fur: Mimikri, Cuffed gloves and Fur stole
Pose: MS, Soul set

Free To Roam Alone

Hair: Tram . Necklace: Chop Zuey, When Elephants Dream .

When I first saw this jewelry set from Chop Zuey, I instantly became smitten. When I learned 100% of the proceeds of the sale go to the World Wildlife Federation? I was in love. Please, pick yours up today. Better yet, it makes the perfect Christmas gift for so many on your list and you will be helping wildlife at the same time. Win Win. I love it when it all ties together nicely, don’t you?

Sweater: Drift, Draped cardigan **NEW** . Dress: Drift, Sexy Lil Mini .

Take from? Lets help wildlife while it still has a habitat we can view it in, not wait until most of their population resides in picture books or zoos. Just a thought, for what ever it’s worth to you. I hope your little elves are busy planning you a magical holiday surprise!